I felt like breaking something .
I wanted so badly to throw something against the wall and let it shatter.
I was so angry, angry with Fahad for making me believe that we could happen, with Shoug for loving him and stealing him from me, but she cant steal something from me if it never was mine, I guess.
I was mostly angry with myself, for believing him, for loving him.
Why didn’t I fall for someone else? Anyone else would’ve been better.
But I didn’t fall for someone else, I fell for Fahad and he fell for Shoug. Which is understandable, he cant control who he loves, and even if he could control his emotions, he probably would still be in love with Shoug. She’s much prettier; if I were him I would choose her too.
I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself, my hands were slightly shaking.
It was completely and utterly stupid, this is so pathetic.
He chose her, not you, get over it. He doesn’t deserve all of this; the whole situation doesn’t deserve this.
I closed my eyes for a brief second then walked out of the room, looking for my mom and found her in her room, talking on the phone with someone.
“Am I ungrounded, yet?” I asked after she hanged up. I wanted to go out, badly.
“No” she said not even looking up from her phone
“But I have to go to Lama’s” I said
“No” she said again
“Its urgent!” I said
“Deema, you’re not getting out of this house until you learn from your mistakes” She said
“You’re taking this way too seriously, I feel like I’m suffocating. We’re in London for god’s sake, I want to go out and enjoy my time here! But you wont let even me get out of the house! Its unfair” I complained throwing my arms in the air
“You’re still grounded, end of discussion. Beside its late, so even if you weren’t grounded I wouldnt let you go out at this time”
“I hate you, I hate each and every single member of this awful family,” I said, and it sounded a bit melodramatic even to me.
“Whatever, as long as you do it silently in your room” She said
I groaned and walked back to my room. Worst. Summer. Vacation. Ever.
I texted Ryan.
Ryan: working:(
Deema: when does your shift end?
Ryan: late, too late to do anything actually fun at least.
Deema: :( Good luck.
Lama was too scared to go out at night. Which is stupid, what would happen?
So I grabbed my phone and went out alone, through the front door this time-I didn’t care enough if my family saw me going out, what would they do?
I had no idea where I was going, I just kept walking forward.
“What’s a pretty lady like you doing out here at such a time” I heard a voice say, I froze in my place and my heart stopped for a second.
Run the voice in my head told me, and I was about to when a hand grabbed my arm and urged me to turn.
“Damn you, Fahad, you almost gave me a heart attack!” I said pushing his shoulder, a bit too forcefully but he didn’t seem phased, he just kept laughing, and eventually I laughed, just a bit, too.
“Are you stalking me? Or are you just always out on the streets?” I said raising an eyebrow at him
“Im stalking you” he said grinning
“I knew it!” I jokingly said
“No, I just always catch you going out of the house, and something makes me go out after you.”
“But seriously,” he said “What are you doing out here at such a time? Don’t you know what happens to beautiful women like yourself who are naïve enough to go out unguarded at night?” then he leaned in close enough that I could feel his breath on my cheek.
“It rhymes with grape” he whispered, then pulled away and grinned like a little boy.
I was blushing like crazy, I tried to stop myself but how the hell do you stop yourself from blushing? I started laughing, hard.
“I love your laugh” he smiled
“Thank you” I said I was blushing even harder now.
“I also love how red your face turns when you blush” he said
“Stop!” I said turning away to hide how awfully red my face probably was
“Youre beautiful” he suddenly said very seriously.
For less than a second I though ‘he might actually like me back’ but then I remembered that he doesn’t, and that he loved and is currently in a relationship with Shoug, my sister.
“Careful. What if your girlfriend hears? We don’t want her to misunderstand anything, do we?” I said suddenly not feeling like laughing.
“Girlfriend? What are you talking about?” he asked, he seemed genuinely confused
“You know exactly what I’m talking about” I said
“I know nothing about what you’re talking about” he said furrowing his eyebrows
“Shoug already told me, you don’t have to lie,” I said “I already know that you guys are together”
“What?!” he shouted
“Shhh! La7ad yesme3ek! Etha shafatne ome, bt3a9eb!” I said walking, trying to keep as much distance between the house and I.
“Deema what the hell are you saying! I’m not in a relationship with Shoug! I’m not in a relationship with anyone!” He said.
“Really?” I said looking him in the eye
“Yes, really. I promise Deema, you’ve got to believe me,” he said looking sincere
“Why would Shoug lie to me?” I said furrowing my eyebrows. I was confused; I didn’t know what to believe.
“I have no idea” he said
“She said that she told you she liked you a lot, and you told her that you feel the same way” I said
“She told me that she likes talking to me, and it was the polite thing to say that I like talking to her too,” he said shrugging
I groaned, frustrated with both him and Shoug.
“I’m done talking about Shoug, okay? I’m out here to clear my mind and you’re only making me more confused!” I said a bit too loud
“So unless youre going to shut up about that lying-two-faced-twat, then get the hell away from me!” I continued then walked away, he kept following me though “Twat? Really Deema?” Fahad said laughing
“Why do you keep laughing at me?” I said my lips shaping into a small smile.
“Not laughing at you, but more of laughing because of you?” He said
“Oh, that makes me feel much better” I said nudging his arm
“I forgot to ask you, where were you going?” He asked me
“I don’t know, just wanted to get out”
“But aren’t you grounded?” he asked
“Umm, well, im fine as long as no one finds out” I said
“That’s my girl” he grinned at me
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